Saturday, January 14, 2012

Fairytales

Another bit of poetry...I'm learning!
This is something I wish I could say to all the little ones out there who wish for their own Prince Charming.


She spins carefree
Through wildflowers,
Her arms outstretched
Fairytales sketched
Softly through the hours.

A baby girl
Of scarcely four
With windswept hair
Her skin so fair
Easy to adore.

She wears a crown
Of daisy-chain
Her seashell ring
A sacred thing
Tells all of her reign.

She dances with
The singing birds
Their songs of love
From high above
She hears as prince's words.

Baby girl,
Don't lose belief
Your perfect prince
He will exist
He'll steal your soul, that thief.

Beware, for there
Are charlatans
They'll lie to you
Break you in two,
They'll say they are your prince.

Sweet baby,
When you've grown enough
Don't be fooled
For not all "jewels"
Are diamonds in the rough.

But still he'll wait,
His perfect face
Hidden from sight
When time is right,
All heartache shall he chase.

Your dreams will be real,
Sweet baby girl.
Just wait, you'll see
And patiently
Watch as they unfurl.


Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Dream On

Last night, I had a dream.

The world was quiet, everyone was asleep, and my overactive imagination came out to play.  I dreamed that I was on a stage in a huge empty theater.  Well, empty except for one person.  The figure remained in the last row, in the shadows, for the extent of time I was performing.  The song was sad and sweet; I'd never heard it before.  But I moved across the stage as one does to a song they hold dear to them, feeling the lights on my face and the air rush over my skin as I twirled and jumped.  Never once did that person in the audience move or show an expression of gratitude or appreciation.  I was performing for an audience of one person that didn't even show signs of care.  But I cared.  I wanted to be sure that person left the theater feeling moved by my dance.  Did they?  Who knows, I woke up before the song ended.  I like to think they did though.

It's inspiring to hear that the things I do are appreciated, but it's also inspiring just to know that they might be.  Some may walk away from a situation moved to tears while others may walk away feeling just as moved, but only inwardly.  I'm inspired by these people as well.  I don't think I have a reason for why I dreamed I was onstage dancing for one person who seemed unappreciative.  Maybe it was to teach me something: not every good thing I do will be met with accolade, and I may never know the people I've touched who prefer to appreciate inwardly.  I think that sometimes it appears as though nobody cares about what you're doing, when in reality they really do and just don't know how to show it.  So, I've decided to not make assumtions about the sincerity of an emotionless person.  Life is too short to get hung up on digging good comments out of people.  Do your best, and if they outwardly appreciate it, awesome.  If they decide to remain quiet about it, all you can do is assume gratitude.  Otherwise, we'd all go crazy.

On another note, or maybe a different side of the same note, I love this song and can't get it out of my head.  Funny really, the title:


BTW, I think the person trying to communicate with "Olivia" in the beginning is hilarious.  They should definitely do this in choir.  It could be awesome.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Living In The Looking-Glass

For a writing contest, I got to compose a letter to the author of a book that inspired me recently.  I chose Lewis Carroll and his book "Through the Looking-Glass."  Here's the letter for my readers who are interested:
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Dear Mr. Carroll,
How would you describe the feeling of reading the last words of a beautiful story?  To me, finishing a good book is like saying goodbye to a best friend.  I get a bittersweet feeling after hearing the familiar sound of a back cover falling onto the last page of a finished book.  Upon a story’s end, I must take time to reflect on the message it revealed to me during the reading adventure.  This is why I never finish a book in public.  I must be in complete solitude as I inhale the parting words, the final insight, that the book gives me.  That last chapter is a farewell hug, a somber wave goodbye, a smile that I remember long after departure happens.  The words on the last page put the finishing touches on the picture that the story has been painting—finishing touches that define the entire book.  During the picture-painting, the characters take up residence in my mind, and will remain there until the story’s end.  Because the book is now living in my mind, I feel as though I’ve made a new friend.  It is for this reason that I say the feeling of finishing a good book is bittersweet.  My new friend, this book, has nothing more to tell me, but yet its message, given that it’s a good one, will live on in my mind as I ponder the meaning behind it.
One such story whose message I still ponder is “Through the Looking-Glass.”  Alice’s residency in my mind began when I first spotted the worn copy of the book perched on the bookcase in the front room of my house.  My mother has a tendency to gravitate toward old books when the family goes “antiquing.”  It must have been on one such antiquing occasion that she scavenged the copy of “Through the Looking-Glass” that I happened upon one October Saturday.  The moment I opened the cover of the book, I was met with that delightfully enchanting “old book” aroma.  The sunlight streaming through the window lit the dust that flew from its pages as I fanned them apart.  Throughout the month, “Through the Looking Glass” went everywhere with me.  Sitting on the floor in the corridor of Aberdeen Hall is how I did the majority of my reading.  Because I waited at the very end of the hallway, I saw little traffic, so it was the perfect place to immerse myself into Alice’s world.  It was mostly there that I had the chance to lose myself in the story, to forget the rest of the commotion in the real world.  I got to go through the looking-glass with Alice, and as I followed her through the land of backwards dreaming and nonsensical exchanges, I realized that the real world is far too boring.  I would much rather spend my days sharing cake with unicorns and lions than becoming caught up in the same hum-drum of daily life.  During the time I spent reading “Through the Looking-Glass,” I started to develop a unique perspective of the world.  I began to look at things as not only what they were, but also what they were not, and what they could be if they became what they were not.  Really, my imagination experienced a change during my time reading “Through the Looking-Glass.”  Much like Alice, I think of things differently after having ventured into the looking-glass.  Because of this boosted imagination I seem to have developed, I feel that I have become a better thinker.  The ideas I develop have more color.  For this, Mr. Carroll, I must thank you.
Sadly, as with all stories, “Through the Looking-Glass” had to come to an end.  I had the opportunity to finish Alice’s story on the floor of Aberdeen Hall, but I didn’t take it.  The event of finishing the book seemed much too sacred to happen in such an open place.  So, I waited until the day was over and I was in my parked car.  The lot was relatively empty, and I had always parked in the last spaces anyway, so I felt alone enough to finish the story.  So, I opened the old book to page 184 and read the last chapter.  As Alice came out of the looking-glass world and was left pondering the certain dream she’d just experienced, I felt as though I too was returning from the looking-glass world with Alice.  As I heard that bittersweet sound of cover falling onto page, I took away the realization that we all have our own looking-glass imaginations that we step into every so often, and occasionally, I find that in a reality of chaos and confusion, my imagination is sometimes the place that makes the most sense.

With praise, thanks, and regard from my own looking-glass world,
                ~Jessica Edwards-Smith
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Envelope Art I drew for the letter. . . so it can arrive in style ;)





Sunday, January 1, 2012

Cheers!

Here's to a new year!  As I raised my glass and kissed my boyfriend last night at 12:00, I was reflecting on the events of 2011.  As is happens, I've done some pretty amazing things this past year.  I've grown a lot-- spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and musically (also, I grew an inch!  Does that count?)  I have also gotten the chance to see and do many amazing things (like seeing Pat Benatar and going to NYC to see Wicked!)  2011 has seen many life changes as well.  I graduated highschool, started and finished my first college semester, had the chance to act, sing, and choreograph my first musical, celebrated with my boyfriend our third Christmas together, made some new friends while growng closer to existing ones, joined a band, picked up a new instrument, and started a novel. 

Indeed, the year has been a big one.  I've never been one to make huge New Year's resolutions, but if I were to make one this year, it would be to continue playing, performing, and learning music.  I miss dancing, so maybe I will join a class again.  Maybe I will even get the chance to choreograph again!  Whatever the case, I know that music will be a big part of the coming year.  That is something I;m very much looking forward to.  I'm not seeking to become a rock star (although that would be awesome, no?)  but I would like to keep finding my voice.  Taking singing lessons with my cousin was a great part of 2011, and it helped me to explore another facet of music.  I think I made a good choice there.  I also think I made a good choice when I decided to learn the bass.  Although I haven't had much time to find my inner crazy groovy bassist, I have learned a lot about the instrument, and in 2012, I hope to get more in tune with that inner bass musician.  Who knows?  She might be pretty good.  Another thing I'd love to do is go back to New York.  That was such an amazing experience.  Wombatting down the sidewalks of NYC is something I'll never forget.   If I ever find the video of the experience, I will post it.  But for those of you who know what I'm talking about, and for those of you who were there in person, you can have a laugh too ;) 

So, my friends, here's a toast to the new year and the memories made in the last one.  Cheers!